FIRST POST ABOUT ... MY LIFE IS ALL WONKY!!!

Well this is a change....I haven't blogged in over 5 years....Well I'm going to start again.  I closed my store after 4 years...It was an adventure...but I went on to new things.  My life has been a dichotomy of great happiness and great sadness....  I now cruise a lot on Holland America which I will share some photos soon....but I have great sadness, grief, unbearable heartache which is personal to me and I don't want to mention it because someone might read it and I don't want to make things worse.  I have been diagnosed with treatment-resistant severe depression and am seeing a psychiatrist for this problem.  Life has not been good for at least 5 years now.....  I will be blogging about this and other things in hopes it will help me through this absolutely heart-wrenching agony that I'm going through.  I can do nothing about my personal situation, believe me I've tried everything...I can only wait and have hope that things will get better...I do have hope...even after the worst 5 years of my life.